An apology

Hey readers—you may have noticed my news roundup didn’t go out on Saturday as promised. I’m very sorry about that.

This was due to a combination of incompetence and sickness; if you missed it, a couple weeks ago I explained how my frequent migraines might lead to situations like this. On Saturday I was just depressed; I spent a lot of the day asleep, felt upset when I was awake, and was afraid of and defeated by small tasks. I intended to send the newsletter out Sunday morning instead, but by the time I went to bed on Saturday night I had developed an awful pounding headache all over my head, neck, and shoulders. Despite 20 years of experience of this type of headache becoming a huge migraine, I went to bed without medicating it properly, thinking it would go away in the morning (??). It didn’t; I woke up at 6.30am with a full-blown migraine, the type where I take a horrible Migranal nasal spray and have to stay in bed for most of the day. I got through most of a season of The Great British Bake Off.

It’s hard to untangle the relationship between depression and migraines—does the depression cause the migraines, or are people just depressed because they have migraines and it fucks up their lives?—but they’re strongly associated, and many people experience mood changes and depression as part of the “prodrome” phase before the migraine happens. Depression is also often part of the “postdrome,” the phase after most of the pain has gone. It’s even harder to untangle when these symptoms coincide with menstruation, which is a guaranteed migraine trigger for me—is that PMS you’re feeling, or prodrome for a coming migraine?

Anyway, I am going to try and move past this bad weekend that made me feel like a total failure. I’ll try to send out more content than usual this week to make up for it. (I still have a headache, hence the hedging.)

Here’s a few good links that are on the top of my mind:

A story about vaccine prioritization and how it can be done right, by Natalie Shure in The Nation.

The emptiness of mental health ‘awareness’ campaigns in a society without adequate mental health care and where inequality truly does make life hard, by Alex Press, also in The Nation.

A doctor’s insurance company was charged $10,984 for a Covid-19 antibody test performed at the very chain he worked for, leading him to quit his job. The chain’s website lists the cost of the test as $75.

A thoughtful piece about “long Covid,” and poor media handling of the issue, by Dr. Adam Gaffney.

And, because I know it’s why some of you subscribed, a picture of Digby. She stayed in bed with me pretty much all day yesterday. She’s a good girl, although she might just think I was in her bed.

See you tomorrow for our regularly scheduled programming. And, once again, I am sorry.